More like me

I will be 20 in 8 minutes.

Is 8 minutes long enough

To reminisce on my last 19 years?

I wish I could remember everything that ever happened in my life

And look back on them through a photo album.

I have gained friends then lost them,

I have been in relationships then not,

Things change all the time but you don’t see them unless you’re up close.

I notice when my teachers get a hair cut

Or if the walls have been painted at my local doctors office.

I’ll be 20.

In 6 minutes.

Am I ready? To start my twenties?

In my head I’m still 17

And relating to songs by The 1975

I forget that I’m supposed to be a grown up now

Where did all the time go?

I’m proud of myself

But I would also do anything to be 9 years old again.

Dear younger me,

You’re going to be alright.

Happy birthday.

-your older self

I’ll be 20,

In 3 minutes.

I’ve got this.

I have to.